the shanellephant

so, this really doesnt pertain to anyone on here i think...


i finally realized...
...things that once mattered dont anymore.
...things i used to think i needed are of no use.
...people that i once thought i needed, i dont.
...everything that i once knew has now discipated and turned into something completely new.

im very grateful for the old. it has made me the person i am today. but i am VERY thankful for the new. it's time for me to start over. a new fresh start. i havent even moved yet and i feel so free. i left everything behind. everything that was hindering me from God's best in my life..gone. so, i'm sorry to all the people that i will leave behind, but it is something that i need to do. please, please dont take it personally. i love every one of you and i thank you for all the times we've had. good or bad, happy or sad, you were there. i wouldnt trade it for the world. but this is something i have to do. and i have to do it alone. so, please dont be angry with me if i seem distant or just dont talk to you or cant do anything. i need to move on. i HAVE to move on. i will carry you with me, but not in the way i once had. i cant. i know some people will be hurt or angered by this and for that i apologize, but i have grown up and matured in a way some will not understand.

this is not directed at any one person in particular. i can assure you.