yesssssssssss

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday dear shanelly
happy birthday to you.

gah!

why is it that everything i want..i can't have?

every time i grow close to a person..they fall out of my life. it's always the people who mean the most to me. the people i find to be utterly amazing couldn't care less about me. this is a screwed up pattern that i can't seem to break. im so sick of it. i just want to be content in myself and be able to just..live for me. to not care about other people. i want to base my life off of what i want out of it. not what i want other people to want out of me or what i want out of other people.

i'm seriously so sick of high school. i can't wait to get out of here. i can't wait until i can go to college. i want to go somewhere where nobody knows me. where i can start anew. just..be whatever and whomever i want to be.

for the longest time, i was so set on going back down to san diego. but now..everyone is just..gah! im so freakin annoyed with everyone. really, the only person who still talks to me is Melissa. i could name so many people who SAID they'd keep in touch but didn't. so, then i think..why would i want to go back down and live with people who don't care about me to begin with. 'oh, no shanell. they care.' well, ya surely have a stupid way of showing it. 'but, the phone works both ways, shanell' yes. well, i've called many a person. we talk for a few minutes and they are 'busy' yeah? well, im busy too. im gonna try the selfish approach for awhile. but, of course, you're too wrapped up in yourself to notice. yup. so, as far as you are concerned, im BUSY too.





*if anyone EVER says they love me or care about me again..i might just go die. thanks.

new discovery..?

so, apparently my default expression is that of a beagle..?



yes. thank you mr. warren. THANK YOU.

where's the fear of stupid people..?

A
[] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[x] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[x] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning.
[] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

B
[x] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[] Belonephobia - Fear of pins and needles.
[] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed.
[] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[] Entomophobia - Fear of insects.
[] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[x] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[] Homophobia- Fear of Homosexuals
[] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[] Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

K
[] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[x] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

N
[] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.
[] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.

O
[] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.
[] Octophobia - Fear of the number 8.
[] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.
[] Ostroconaphobia - Fear of seafood.

P
[] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[] Phobophobia - Fear of phobias.
[] Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[x well, just dying in it...] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.

V-Z
[] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[x] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or foreigners.
[] Zoophobia - Fear of animals.

bah!

im so sick of this thing called life.











any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

aaaand iiiiiii'm

off to the airport.

so im thinking that since i have been gone for like 3 weeks and didnt miss the compy too much..i might just stay away for awhile. so, dont expect to see too much here. i might update sporadically, but..yeah.

well,

my dads really cool and decided we're po' and didnt pay the cable bill.





sooooooooooooooo...looks like i won't be on for a while.




























see y'all soon. peace.

neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeevermind. im pro and fixed it.


why is this a poopy colored font thingy? ew.

mY keyboard duddnt work. at all

since i know we all really do...

click

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL. I AM N THE PROCESS OF CALLING PEOPLE, SO DON'T FRET. MELISSA...I STILL DON'T HAVE YO NUMBER. GIMME!

fiiiiiiiiiiiiinally

i finally own the lion king [again]. yes. and i be watchin itttt. ITS THE CIRCLE OF LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFE. AND IT MOVES US AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALL. aaah. i love aaaht.

the church girl's at it again...

so, apparently i have become known as the "church girl". how? i dont know. it kinda pisses me off. like, i found out my 'friends' lied to me about what lunch they had because they were high and didnt want me to judge them. i pretty much blew up today in chemistry when i found this out. im so sick of it. 'oh. we cant invite shanell. she'll judge us..' ok. first off..its not my place to judge people. at all. secondly, i alredy knew they did that and didnt stop being their friend because of it.

i just hate how everyone labels everyone else. im sure you would say..use this to your advantage or something. well, i dont see an advantage here. everything i do now will be because im a church girl. i wont be able to witness because nobody will listen..boo.

lord..give me the strength and the words to speak to these people. cuz they be lame.

i seriously cannot WAIT til next semester. collegeeeeeeeeeee.

and i quote...

random girl on bus- "it is not called a hamburger. it's a cheeseburger. you just say 'can i have a cheeseburger..hold the cheese.'"

same random girl on bus- "it's like..you say..'can i have some mashed potatoes without the potatoes. then they just give you mashed up butter.'"

kiley- "how often do you shave your elbows?" [the question wasnt as retarded as it sounds..if you hear it in context]

jimmy- "do elbows even have hair?"

shanell- "you have hair everywhere on yer body except the palms of your hands and the soles of your feet. so, yes. it's just not crazy hair."

random girl on bus[again]- "ohemgee! do i have hair on my eye-balls then?!?"

shanell- "[sarcastic tone]yeah. you have hair on your eye-balls. that's exactly what i was talking about. yer cool."

random girl on bus starts whining about her "hairy eye-balls".


moral of the story...ride the school bus. even if yer not in school, find a bus and ride it. tell me what you think.


♥

yeeeeeah

so, things have most def. calmed down. foooor shooooore. life is still kinda crazy but hey. it happens. "if you wanna poop, eat something." oh, that maf teacha. he's crazy.

so, my aunt came back from sandy eggo [im sure you might have seen herrr] with a bunch of stuff that she and my other aunt had purchased for meee. one of these things happened to be some glittens. i andheartssemi-colon them. apparently so does everyone and their motherrrrrr[s]? i dunno. boo. everyone has 'em now. bleh

remember kidds..to the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world.

go listen to some 80's music. it's wonderful. and real. unlike this crap they be puttin out nowadays. i mean..some of it's ok. most of it...toopid.

time for updatage.

so, life is..odd. the parentals are gone. 4 whole days to mahself. whatever shall i do? party it up? no. sit at home and do nuffin all day long. actually. not. today i went to a surprise birthday party for whitney. i lub whitney. and tomorrow, feeney weeney and tely should be coming over. and monday and tuesday be schoo. so, i guess it won't be terrible. but..you guys had better have fun with my parents tomorrow [today]. miss me tons. look at them and say 'wow. i REALLY REALLY REALLY miss shanell.' you betta. cry. yeah. cry. i want you to cry in my absence. and after you finish crying, yell at my parents for not taking me. i dont even get to go to my effing uncle's funeral...uuuupsetting.